An update

Belly shots!! this is week 29. Baby is kicking up a storm and so are the gallstones. Starting the no sleep phase now as well as the no position is comfy. Next Dr's apt is on the 22nd so I hope to have some ultransound pics of Aidan for you.

Gallstones

So for the past 4 weeks I've had at least one bad episode a week of what I thought was excruciating heartburn.. When I got two in one day I called my Dr. and yesterday I went for an ultrasound.. Yup you got 10 + tiny little stone sitting in the gallbladder. Thanks to my son pushing everything around I now get attacks. The worst is I have at least 4 more months of this that I have to suffer thru. No surgery unless absolutely needed. I am thankful that my attacks last no longer than 20 minutes, I've read of some woman having attacks for 2 hours.

Tricky part trying to figure out what foods are likely to set off an attack. Everything the Canada food guide tells me to eat for a balanced diet, is very likely to set off an attack. the confusing part for me is that a particular food can set me off one day and not the next. So now I face each meal with trepidation.

One person told me to look on the bright side, I'll be ready for contraction cause they are nowhere near as painful. I told my husband that if contractions are as painful as this I am damn well taking that epidural!!

One of those moments

So as I sit here trying to work, I suddenly got this omg I have a baby in me moment. I have these moments where it's like pure disbelief, I can't believe this finally happened. There's really no denying it, it's so obvious now, my belly is large and boy does he kick.. and he kicks my bladder all the time. I am heading into week 23 so I am starting to feel him more and more. I can't wait for the moment that my husband really feels him. I get these silly grins on my face all the time now, Chris knows at that moment that our son has kicked.

My husband has been great, he's taken a very active role in the pregnancy. It's nice to share it with him, although when I have my moments of OMG is something wrong he thinks I am nuts but oh well, what can one do..

So I fianlly decided to get the flu shot, my doctor convinced me it was safe for the baby..

Have I mentioned that we picked a name?? I can't remember "pregnancy brain" ftw. His name is to be Aidan Charles ( of course the Charles is not for everyday use ).. As I write this here he goes kicking..

Flu Shot

So I am having a dilemma.. Everything I read says pregnant woman should get the flu shot not only for them but the baby is protected for 6 months after birth. However I have read comments that some believe the mercury that's in the shot can cause autism in the baby. Now my GP says get it my OB/GYN is against any kind of vaccination during pregnancy. I am so confused. I am asthmatic so the flu shot is a big plus for me. I have been getting the shot for 17 years.. really don't know what to do.

Making people guess

It's been fun making people guess at what we are having. Co workers are frustrated with me or more my husband cause he's the one who doesn't want to say anything. So far not one person has said we are having a boy.. Everyone has guessed a girl. I try so hard not to smile. If they happen to say he or she I just agree. Although I have to admit I know I am going to slip up somewhere. As much as I like having people guess I also want to jump up and shout out what we are having.

On another note I received some not so happy news from a friend yesterday. Wendy was expecting twins and at her 12 week check up she found out she lost one of them. The other baby is healthy. Thank God for that. I can sympathize with Wendy as I too had lost one this time last year. It was devastating to me, at the very least she has something to hold on to .. Wendy my thoughts and prayers are with you sweetie.

We were convinced!

So all this time hubby and I were convinced we were having a girl.. Well yesterday was a shocker.. That's right people it's a BOY! we saw the genitals there is no mistaking it. I think I am taking it better than my husband but I am sure he will gt over his shock even if it means I have to kick him in the butt.

Personally I am happy with either or, I just want a healthy baby. Yes it means changing some of the ideas we had for the future of our baby but oh well life likes to throw us curves.

20 Weeks

So I am at the halfway mark.. Saw the Dr. today we know what we are having.. Yes I am going to leave everyone hanging.. Hubby wants to announce it at birth. Here is the baby and doing very well I might add.

At Last

Ok Wendy here it is... I promised you a pic this weekend so here it is.. I actually look decent in these pics so I feel ok posting it.

Slacker

Yeah I'm a slacker.. Pretty much just been dreaming most days. I find it very hard to concentrate on any one thing. My husband put together the crib, and I have started receiving little things from people. An ex co-worker came over with a whole bunch of wonderful stuff a swing, high chair, exerciser and a mat for the baby. The more I see these things the more it becomes reality.

I had a mini car accident on Wens of last week since then I have been slightly neurotic. Thank god no cramps or bleeding so all seems good. I have a doctors appointment on the 15th so I will talk to him more about it. I know I promised pics of the belly but my husband took them of me on a Sunday ( ie no makeup ) so I am not posting them :P

I think hubby and I have picked a name for the name.. No I am not telling yet :). Lets just say it hasn't' been easy.

First Baby Gift

So today I got our first baby gift, of course not counting the crib and dresser/change table my mom and dad got us. I had lunch with an ex co worker and she bought me a cute outfit for the baby to wear when leaving the hospital. It is so cute, it has a little hat to go with it and it has ears on it. She picked a nice neutral colour :). Being the suck that I am I almost cried when I saw the size of the oufit.. I can't believe that a baby can fit in that it's soo tiny.

Getting the gift has now made me more anxious to have the baby.. I promise this weekend to take pictures of the baby bump..

I keep Waiting

What do I keep waiting for?? Cravings. So far I have to say I haven't really craved anything in particular. Which really sucks cause I wanted to keep my husband to his promise of going out and buying me what I want when I have a craving. Wendy keeps telling me of her funky cravings and I wonder when it's going to hit me?? Could I end up being one of those people who don't get any?

Well anyways I am now "looking" pregnant according to my husband. Last night he took a look at my belly and said now you look like you have a pregnant belly. So he's promised that this weekend we will take some pics, I promise to post them!

Double Trouble

But not for me! My friend Wendy knew last week there was a possiblitiy of twins, they had seen something but didn't know if it would remain viable. Yesterday she had another unltrasound and voila a second bean. I am super excited for her, to go from not being able to get pregnant to having twins is amazing and to do it naturally is even better.

Chris is very happy it's her not us. I had always hoped for multiples but alas it was not to be, I will gladly accept my one little bean and let Wendy have the joys of handling two at once. I think next summer a road trip might be in order if Wendy is up for it !

Grats again sweetheart!

I Got it

So yesterday I decide to check out the price of Bones season 2 at several stores, it was showing at 59.99 everywhere but Future Shop.. So I finally managed to get it!!! I watched one episode last night and plan to make a night of it tonight. Wendy I will never forgive you for this!!!

As for my pregnancy well all is going good. I am in what my mother calls the nesting phase all I want to do is re-arrange the house clean etc... With two dogs however it's hard to keep it as clean as I would like. I also feel not pregnant, if it weren't for the belly I would swear this is all a figment of my imagination. When I was in my first 3 months I had the morning sickness and as long as I had that I knew I was pregnant. I am at the stage where that is gone but I can't feel the baby move yet. I am so anxious to feel "her" move.

Bones Bones Bones

Why on earth did I not like this show when it first came out?? Why on earth did I not listen to Wendy all those months when she said you have to watch it and of course me being stubborn said "I didn't like it". Well now I regret it, I read Wendy's Bones blog every couple of days.. I know I shouldn't cause I haven't seen season 2 or 3. This is another issue I NEED to get season two now, but I resent paying 60$.

My husband has taken to watching the episodes he didn't see with me while I sleep. I don't think he will ever admit to liking the show but somewhere deep down I think he does!

I can't wait to see if the action scenes are better in season 2 than in 1, I have to admit if they are going to look that "staged" they should not bother with it.

Good News!

So my friend Wendy is also pregnant! She and I have been trying almost the same amount of time. Figures that we would get pregnant within pretty much the same time frame, we kept saying we'd love to be pregnant at the same time and now we are.

I kept telling her she was, she kept listing her symptoms to me and I kept saying go test you're preggers and looks like once again I was right. I like being right. If you want to see her bean there's a link on my blog that takes you to hers, Articulate on Paper is the one you are looking for.

Focus what's that?

So it's finally Friday. For some reason I found this week a hard week.. I couldn't seem to focus on much. I have also started that pregnancy brain. I forget everything if I don't write it down.. God help us all as Chris relies on me to remember the mundane things. I almost feel like I can use another vacation right now.

I am however in the mood to start re-arranging the house.. Much to my husbands dismay. I am also a pack rat and realized that I don't need half the stuff that I have saved in the house. Boy I think this nesting instict could become dangerous. I am going to enlist my mothers help however, once her and I get into a groove watch out.

I thought my morning sickness was all gone I was feeling great, then BAM this morning it rears it's ugly head and comes back. Oh well maybe only a few more episodes of it and it will be done. I am getting lucky an old coworker of mine has some baby stuff to give me :) so that will help save some money.

The heartbeat

OMG I heard the baby's heartbeat, it was so amazing it brought tears to my eyes. Seems that all is well the tests are not showing any markers for Downs so the doctor is not pushing an amnio on me even with my age, PHEW! Everything looks good my due date is officially March 9th. So mark it on your calendars. Here are some pics from todays visit.

Tid BIts

So Friday night my husband paid himself a treat, he got himself the PS3. I figured he is always thinking of myself and his daughter so why not encourage him to get something for himself. I actually want him to get Rock Band, maybe I can give that a try.

I am now in my second trimester, starting to feel better. I actually felt energetic this morning, however now at 2:30 in the afternoon I am tired. I can definitely say I am no where near as tired as I was at the beginning of the pregnancy but I could use a nap right now.

So I told my husband that this Christmas we should go easy on the gifts to each other, especially with a baby's room to furnish. Somehow though the idea of minimal gifts don't appeal to us very much, so I made a suggestion how about we gift each other a new TV. OH BOY! was I not thinking, I started looking at the costs today, makes me want to cry.

Speaking of Christmas my mother pulled a fast one on me.. I told her I was thinking of doing Christmas at our place this year, so she was with her sisters this weekend and my cousins and mentions that I was thinking of doing Christmas at my place. The whole family has decided they are coming to my place for dinner that day. OMG was Chris pissed. I don't think so much at the fact the family is coming more at the fact that my mom opened her mouth and the family invited themselves. I told my mom today to keep her mouth closed from now on. I also told her she's helping out :P.. She is definitely going to buy the turkey that's for sure.

New Pics

So last night we had another ultrasound. This one made everything even more real. The technician puts me at 13 weeks and a day. She also said she believes it to be a girl but not to paint the room yet. We are pretty sure it's a girl! Bean got moved around so much last night that she got the hiccups, it's was so funny to see her bouncing up and down with them. The most important part of it all was hearing that her spinal fluid is normal, which means atm the chances of downs is lessened. I still have blood tests to wait for for other markers but I should have those next week.

Something happened to me last night that has never happened. As they were taking blood my blood would stop flowing into the vials. For 3 vials of blood I got stabbed 4 times. Ask me if I am amused??? NOT! Oh well I will put up with alot for our little bean.

Hope you enjoy the pics :)

New link to visit

Today I added a new blog to visit http://marissasbunny.com/. My husband sent me this link he got it from penny arcade. At first I didn't want to look at it, being pregnant I am highly emotional and don't want to know of any negatives affecting a child. Of course I am a curious person so I started reading it. Yes it brought tears to my eyes.

I ask that you please take a minute and visit it.

Baby Names

When I was younger ( in my 20's ) I knew what I wanted to name my daughter and son if I ever had one, little did I factor in the wishes of the potential father at the time. Now we come to the fact that I am pregnant and that my husband does have a say in what we name the baby. Pfft who gave them the right to have a say ( just joking darling).

Finding a name is not as easy as one might think! We are leaning towards a Celtic name, both of us have Scottish backgrounds ( my grandfather was born in Aberdeen ). I am drawn to that part of my heritage more so than the french part of me. I also don't want a common name. One that when "she" ( watch the baby be a boy ) goes to school there will be 3 others with the same name. My husband likes girls names that start with a K he claims all his favorite names start with a K. So that really limits us, I have thrown some names at him but he dismisses them all. I really like Moira and Siobhan, but he doesn't. You also when picking a name have to figure on how well it will flow with your last name. So if anyone has some ideas feel free to throw them out there for us. Any help would be appreciated .

God Parents

So how do you go about choosing who should be your child's god parent? Do you pick family without a doubt? Best friend? Someone who shares the same faith as you? or do you just pick someone you know will be a good example for your child?

That's where we are now choosing the god parents, well to be honest the god father. I have always known that my best friend would be the god mother. She raises her boys in the same way that I want to raise my child. She will give "her" the strength she'll need. So now I leave the choice of god father up to my husband. He's debating between two people ( more or less there may be one more in there who knows ) and it's a family member or friend. How do you make the decision?

Withdrawal

Ok let's not have Wendy read this cause she'll bug me about it. I have been 2 nights without a Bones episode. I am now in withdrawal I need to watch one. I find myself not wanting to play my game at night cause I want to get in at least 2 episodes. I watched the episode "The man in the fallout Shelter", definately not one to watch pregnant when your hormones are all in an uproar, a tear jerker for sure.

I haven't been able to pick a favorite one yet, but then again I haven't finished season one. When I finish watching the season I will let you all know my favorite. My husband has only watched one episode, doesn't seem promising that he will watch more. Oh well I guess we can't like all the same shows right?

Week 12

So I am in week 12 of my pregnancy, starting to feel a bit better the morning sickness is less and the tiredness not as intense. I go on Thursday for an ultrasound so hopefully I will have a new pic to post then. I am starting to relax now that nothing will go wrong with the pregnancy. Also my husband and I are going to start taking pictures of my belly every month, I might post those too. Believe it or not I am already starting to show!

I haven't' decided whether to make another blog for the baby to one day look at or just do a scrapbook. I like the idea of scrapbooking.. just need to get my table properly set up.. hint hint husband of mine :).

My mother has said that my aunt intends to buy me the cadillac of strollers.. She did it for her kids and wants to do it for me, I think that will be great. I also have a friend who lives in Las Vegas making a quilt for the baby. While I was in Disney I bought some stuffed animals to decorate the babies room.. Now starts the really fun part planning "her" room.

Bones it is

Ok so Wendy won. She wanted me to start watching the t.v. series Bones. Well last night I caved and bought season 1. To be honest I had watched an episode when it first came out and hated it. Why you ask? Because I am an avid fan of Kathy Reichs books and couldn't help but compare the characters in the book to the show, needless to say they are different. So last night I made myself not compare and just watch the show for what it was. Well I went through 4 episodes in one night.

I can't wait to watch some more. Now I wonder if I can get the husband to watch them with me??

Disney Pics

here's some of the pics !

Disney in Aug

OMG HOT & HUMID. However we had a great time.. I was pleased to see that my stepdaughter tried all the rides that she either didn't last year or cried so much on last year again. Guess what??? She loved them. She tried Space Mountain and LOVED IT, she even asked to go on it alone ( her dad hurt his neck ) as long as he waited in line with her. I think her next favourite was Test Track speeding cars for the win. She started to show us her independence this year which is great to see.

What did I do? Well I enjoyed a good book and waited patiently for my family to finish enjoying their rides. I did discover that I could learn to sleep in :). I also found out that the baby does not like mexican food. OMG heartburn I think my husband spent 30 min that night rubbing my back litterally burping me!

I am now in my 11th week of pregnancy and starting to relax with it.. The morning sickness now comes in waves can last for a few days then disappear which was great I didn't suffer too much on vacation. I'm not at my desk so I will make another post with pictures :)

Bean pic 2

So today was the second ultrasound, I am now 9 1/2 weeks pregnant. I saw the heartbeat and Chris and the technician saw "her" move her arm. It now feels more like a reality to me. "Her" heart is strong and there seems to be no complications. So I share with you my second pic.

Trouble

So I got in trouble from a friend the other day for not blogging more.. I admit I have been lax, but omg when they say you get exhausted being pregnant they mean it. I love weekends cause I can nap twice :). As of this moment I am on vacation for two weeks WOOT!. We leave for disney in a few days, boy is that going to be an experience. Pregnant at Disney = no rides :(. However it's well worth it.

On tuesday I go get another ultrasound, so there should be a pic to follow so stay tuned.

First Baby Pic

So here is bean's first pic she is 6weeks 4 days old now and measures a whopping 5.4mm. I know I am saying she but Chris is convinced it's a girl so it must be. Of course being the suck that I am I cried when I saw this photo. I couldn't help but share it with anyone willing to take a peek.. Rest assured more photos will follow. So readers beware you are on this trip with me!

My Bday

Yup you got it today is my 37th birthday. Do I feel old? Sometimes but for the most part I am very happy about myself and my age. I mean what is age besides a number right? If all goes well this will be one of the best years of my life, the first being the year I met my husband, the second the year I married him and this year well they year we have a baby. What better birthday gift could a girl ask for?

My morning sickness has diminished, not quite all gone but not what it was. However I think exhaustion has taken it's place, I could sleep at the drop of a hat ( like right now ). I am anxious for the 14th we get to find out if we are having twins or no and if all is well with the pregnancy.

We are going to Disney on the 7th of August, only thing is I won't be able to go on half the rides.. That should make my step daughter happy as she hates half of the rides we like, this way I will be able to sit with her while my husband stands in line.

Morning Sickness

Why do they even call it that. I have "all day sickness". There is no consistency to when it hits. One day it's really bad the next not so bad. I think the bathroom and I will become best friends before this pregnancy is over :).

I'm at work and I didn't want to tell them before my 12 week mark. However with the fact it might be twins and my morning sickness I think they may end up finding out sooner rather than later. I can't hide me hurrying off to the bathroom all the time. Not to mention that they all knew I was doing treatments. I have at my desk crackers, almonds and today watermelon.. The watermelon seems to be helping.. Not to mention it changes the taste in my mouth.. I have had such a bad taste since the start it's a wonder I want to eat. There is one thing I am sad about, i don't seem to want my cup of tea in the morning anymore :(.. Oh well small sacrifice!

It Worked

So Monday I went for my blood test at 8:30 am, I had cheated I tested at home 3 times that weekend. The hospital tells you not to test because they want to check your actual HCG levels. So although I knew I was pregnant I wanted to wait and see what my levels were. The hospital told me they would call between 12 & 2, by 2;30 I hadn't heard so I called and left a message. they called around 3. The nurse congratulated me then in a very bratty way asked me if I wanted to know just how good my levels were.. I was like sure.. at this point she already told me my levels were good, so my worry of miscarrying early eased. She replies with your levels are at 750 we expect about 100, I was like are you telling me there is a possibility of twins.. Her reply YES! Based on the number of follicles I had they are assuming I am having twins. So I go on the 14th for an ultrasound to see how many heartbeats and sacs there are.

So it worked and it worked very well. I don't think I need to tell anyone how elated and shocked I am. Needless to say my husband is freaking slightly.

Nervous and Excited

OMG it's been a week since I last blogged...

Well alot has happened since then. On the 14th we had a IUI procedure, so I have been waiting to test. Now I am supposed to test on the 30th at the hospital but of course me being me couldn't wait. So on Tues I said let me test and see if the meds have left my system, well there was an extremely faint positive line. Ok could be the meds or could be a positive result. This morning I figure I am close enough to the day AF is supposed to show up so lets test. Voila there's a line. Now it's not as dark as the control line but much darker than Tuesday's line. Guess what?? I fully believe we were successful. I am still going to test on Monday at the hospital cause I want to make sure my levels are good, have miscarried once already.

Symptoms omg are there.. Since Wens I have had nausea and vomiting, I could sleep the day away, my mouth taste awful and my gums are tender.. I always said I would put up with morning sickness :) and boy will I.

Why am I nervous? Easy with one miscarriage already I am worried about another. Although I know false positives are rare I can't help but wonder.. Actually my husband is being more cautious about this than I. I fully believe I am PREGNANT! He on the other had wants to wait for the blood test.

Tempers Flare

Sorry darling for taking your name.

Well needless to say my temper has gone through the roof. Yesterday my folks and I were talking about disciplining children. There was currently a piece in the newspaper where a young girl took her father to court cause he removed her internet access and forbade her going on a school trip because she had used her friends computer to take videos of herself posing inappropriately and putting them online. The judge in this case ruled in favour of the young girl. This sparked our discussion on how the way we are disciplining our kids is slowly being taken out of our hands. I mentioned how soon the govt would say we can't smack our children. My father replies that a judge has set a precedence that we as parents have a right to smack our children. Now keep in mind I say smack not beat. I am sure many of us received a smack as a kid and are none the worse for wear.

What do I see in the newspaper today?? Exactly what I had said.. The govt' is planning to pass a law dictating the only circumstances where you can use force on your kids. I am in the process of writing to my member of Parliament exactly what I think of this law. If my child deserves a smack on the butt he/she will get it. As it is children are out of control today, they have so much power. It's really disheartening.

Old friends

So I am registered on facebook.. It's been great cause it's put me in touch with friends from high school. Yesterday I had a nice surprise, one of my good friends from elementary with whom I lost touch years ago added me to her facebook.

It was so much fun to email each other yesterday and catch up on what's been happening in our lives. I was very leery of putting myself on facebook, we hear in the news of stalkers, identity theft etc. I have found Facebook to be a wonderful tool to keep up with old friends lives.

In today's society we are always rushed, people move away from their hometown alot more than they used to. I find these sites to be a small blessing, I never would have gone looking for anyone from school through the phone book and what not it's almost as if they are right there and easy for you to find in a crowd.

Wedding Anniversary

Today is my 3 year wedding anniversary. I am married to a wonderful man, took me a long time to find him but I got it right the first time.

I found my soulmate 5 years ago when I met him. I never thought I believed in that but Chris is definately that. It's funny five years together and I don't have to explain myself he understand what I am saying, he'll even finish my sentences.

Sometimes I just look at him and fall more in love with him.. I love him more today than the day I said I do..

Happy Anniversary love.

Two week wait

So Saturday we finished our treatments now the dreaded two week wait. Apparently we had alot of little spermies with good motility, as well the doctor who did the procedure said she has had great success.

I am trying not to think too much about it but omg it's virtually impossible.. June 30th I go for a blood test to see if I am indeed pregnant, until then I swear to you every twinge, cramp will have me wondering if we were successful..

The biggest problem with these treatments is how emotional I am. I take so many hormones that stupid little things make me cry, or make me less tolerant. So here's hoping that Saturday created a little bean..

Frustrated

Yesterday I had another appointment at the fertility clinic.. This one was to see if the follicles had reached the size necessary for the insemination.

The appointments are usually quick but there is the one doctor that drives me nuts, she's always wandering around the hospital and making people wait. So after waiting for 30 min for her she tells me that I have 1 follicle measuring 16mm, they want follicles to be 18mm before inducing ovulation and then inseminating. My other ones were only 14mm and 12mm. So she suggests I come back on Friday for another ultrasound for records sake cause no matter what we are doing the procedure on Saturday. So as angry as I was told her no thank you wasn't coming and missing more work. So I walk out of there angry boy was I looking for a fight and crying to boot.

Why so frustrated?? Well this is our 4th attempt and probably final of the IUI treatments then they will want to do IVF. Our first time I only had 1 follicle no success, the second I had WAY too many they didn't want to proceed, third time I had five still no success. All I was thinking about was if 5 didn't work how the hell is one going to succeed..

Today I am in a better place not as frustrated and despairing.

More Trying

My husband just informed me that I needed to go blog. Somehow I think it's because I forget to tell him things sometimes and he finds them out here, that or he gets to poke fun at me for my stupidness.

I was going to write yesterday but was highly stressed from another visit to hospital for our fertility treatments. We decided this month to give the IUI treatment another go, this will be the 4th attempt and I think our doctor will want us to do IVF next (not looking forward to it at all). So they changes my medications this cycle, yesterday we had an ultrasound to see how the medication was working, did I have enough follicles where they big enough blah blah blah. Nasty surprise the ultrasound technician asks me if I have ever been told that I have polyps?? She claims she saw two spots one in the uterus and the other on an ovary. Now day 3 of my cycle before starting any meds I always go for an ultrasound and everything was clear.. They do that ultrasound to make sure going in you have to problems and this way they can keep track of potential problems with your medication.. So the question now is did the medication cause these growths ( if they really are growths ) or did the technician make an error. Personally I am hoping that the tech made an error.

I have enough stress every time I do this that I don't need the thought of polyps or cysts hanging over my head. Why does something so natural as having a baby have to be so damn hard and stressful..

The Sun and I

So being a redhead you would think I would know better right?? I think not! This weekend we had great weather here.. So I decided time to take advantage and start getting some sun so that I don't burn when I go to Disney in August. Well I took sun alright only problemis that I forgot to put sunscreen on. Now I'm a redhead with freckles so you can imagine very easily I am sure how easy it is for me to burn..

I decided to go out and do the lawn yesterday, I was so focused on doing it before it got to hot that I forgot to put sunscreen on, then came assembling the swing and watching my step daughter on her water slide. At 4 pm yesterday I realize ooh my skin is feeling tight.. Yup you got it my shoulders and back are RED. My husband and mother asked me if I was ever going to learn.. I guess at my age the answer would have to be a resounding NO! My defense? I only burn once a year, right at the begining of the summer, so there.

Couldn't resist

In my previous post I brought up Madonna and her Like a Virgin song.. Well I couldn't resist putting in that video as well. God what was I thinking all those years ago..

Music

So last night while playing WoW I decided to go back in time, I go to youtube and find a video of Tiffany. All of a sudden it sparks a whole conversation in guildchat and what kind of music we all listened to when in high school and did we dress like anyone is particular. well I have to admit I idolized Madonna, yes I teased my hair and did everything to look like her when her Like a Virgin video came out.. I found out I was not the only one thank god.. reminder to me need to burn those pictures of me from high school before I can get blackmailed.. As much as I loved and idolized Madonna there was an artist that I spent hours listening to while I was in the hospital in my senior year..Tiffany you got it. I wanted to be her, this sexy redhead :) .

So last night as I mentioned earlier I check out this video and now it's bloody well stuck in my head, so much so that my husband calls me at work and I pick up the phone signing one of her songs.. Now I don't want to be the only with that song stuck in my head so I am going to post it for you to listen to..

What music can you remember listening to in high school?

Trying to have a baby

I know I have been seriously slacking this week...

My husband and I will be married 3 years on the 18th of this month, so for almost that length of time we have been trying to get pregnant. After 9 months of trying my family doctor sent me to a fertility specialist, we found out that we fall into the 10-15% that infertility is unexplained. Since April of 07 we've been doing treatments on and off, because of my age my doctor went right into the IUI treatment instead of just trying medications first. We have done 3 treatments one of which was cancelled because I had too many follicles. So today we went back to try for a 4th time.

Now in between treatments we managed to get pregnant, however I miscarried. So I start thinking the one time I get pregnant is right after taking antibiotics for whooping cough, my thought is, is infertility connected to the immune system? I have two dogs that I am allergic to, is having them causing me to not conceive? So I try to research this and find only one article on infertility and Asthma and they say no correlation.. There really can't be only one article out there can there?

Family Decisions

So my husband says to me today.. "Two days in a row no blog", I was like yup. So I decided to hop on, my biggest problem was omg what do I want to talk about.

My parents are at an age that as they like to say "they are falling apart". My mom has survived so much I think she must have 9 lives. She's had cancer, blod clots, severe bleeding ulcers, angioplasty and a pace maker put in, that's not to mention she has developed diabetes and high blood pressure. Every year is a battery of tests, last year she decided she wanted to have knee replacement surgery. Actually scratch that is was in 2006 that we went to see the surgeon. Finally a few weeks ago she was referred to a new one because of long wait times (no kidding). Well she saw the surgeon today. He claims she is VERY high risk not just cause of her heart but her diabetes could cause infections and she may need to have the surgery done multiple times.

Now mom is 65 years old this year, she is always in pain due to her knee and now we have to discuss as a family wether it is worth the risk. It boils down to possibly no more pain to possibly a series of operations which could lead to amputation with a diabetic. There's also the fact her heart may not be able to take the surgery.

How does one tell their mom that they'd rather see them in pain then go through all these if's. So tonight is a family discussion.. God what do I say??

How I met my Husband

Let me tell you a story..

August 2003 I walked into my new job, I was being introduced around and suddenly there he is, my heart started racing then as my eyes are looking him over what do I see ?? You got it a wedding ring, boy did my heart drop. Funny thing is he and I slowly became friends and found out we had many things in common. We started talking on MSN every night, he would tell me about his marriage, talk about his daughter. I found myself falling in love with him, however I was having a hell of an internal debate, I was not going to be the other woman. My husband marriage had already hit speed bumps before me, he had separated from his wife for two years and he had just gone back this past year, things hadn't really changed for them though. In my head I said do I buy this story? My heart was telling me he was sincere.

My husband calls me on the weekend and says to me I need to talk to you can I come over? Sure I reply, he comes over and needless to say my family is not happy they are worried I am setting myself up for a world of hurt. At this point I feel like telling them it's too late I am in love with him already. At this point I tell my husband that whatever decision he makes has to be for the sake of his daughter how he wants her to see a marriage is, no decision should be made based on what could be for us. Against all my rules we shared our first kiss that day before he left to think about our discussion.. My heart was pounding.

At this point I am sure you know what happened. You got it my husband decided he wanted his daughter to see an affectionate relationship. He was very careful not to bring me into her life right away. He was very smart that way. He also likes to point out that I asked him to marry me.

I now have a wonderful family... I have a husband who cherishes me and spoils me. My stepdaughter is as much mine as she is her moms. I wonder sometimes how I got so lucky?

Moral of my story sometimes you have to let your heart lead not your head ...

Darling I know you will read this.. To you I say thank you for wishing for me ..I love you with all my heart.

Baxter

It's a small pic but here is Baxter at 5 weeks old. Needless to say he is no longer that small he weigs in at a whopping 110lbs..

My dogs

I am an animal lover, I have two dogs that I absolutely adore. Sasha is my 8 year old black lab/border collie cross, she's calm and very ladylike so much so I call her my princess. Baxter is my 6 year old black lab/german shepherd/husky mix, he's my devil everything sasha is he's the opposite. She'll lay there waiting for you to pay attention to her, he will let you know precisely when he's had enough of being ignored or when he want's his cookies.

They've had to go through some changes over the past 5 years since I met my husband. They used to have my full attention now they don't get as much. They use to share my bed with me now they aren't allowed in the bedroom, we've even started keeping them out of my stepdaughters bedroom when she is not there.

Through all of this they remain faithful and loving to me. recently Sasha tore a ligament in her knee, I've been told that it will heal from some and from others it will never heal unless I have surgery done. Obviously the vets want me to do the surgery, however as much as I adore my dogs I can't justify spending 4 thousand on a surgery for her. Does that make me a bad owner? Somedays I think yes.

My husband and I are both allergic to them, I chose to have them before my wonderful husband came into the picture so for me he puts up with the sniffles, the dog hair, the drool. Sometimes I try to imagine what it would be like without them, I know life would be easier but I know my heart would miss them. What I do know is after they are gone, I won't be replacing them. They are at the moment my babies.

Wii Fit

So today I am reading about the new Wii fit.. last Christmas I got my husband the Wii.. Now not being a big gamer there arent' many games that interest me. I got the endless ocean game but shame on me I haven't played it much.

Now I know I have a few pounds to shed, and all my good intentions of going to a gym well lets say they really were good intentions. I also keep thinking about going out to run every morning but the weather here just doesn't make it easy to motivate oneself. So next best step? Exercise in my own home. Now the trick is to convince my husband to buy it for me easy right? Wrong. Because I am always full of good intentions he doesn't believe me when I say I am going to do this minimum 3 morning a week. So he's asking me now what happens when you don't do it three mornings a week.. What kind of answer am I supposed to give to that? I don't know myself. Ido know I need and want to get fit againand that I want to do in in the privacy of my own home. So where do we go ffrom here? I myself have no answer to that question.

Horoscope

This sorta ties in with my previous post ..

For the fun of it I checked out my horoscope on MSN and here is what it said

Today's Cancer Horoscope: May 27, 2008
Once your brain gets hooked on something, dear Cancer, you are likely to take it to the extreme.

hmm could it be for once they know what they are talking about??

Dirty Secret

OK here's my dirty secret I can 100% say that I am addicted to WoW. What is WoW you ask? It's an acronym for World of Warcraft. What is World of Warcraft you ask, well it's the best game ever! Actually to be honest the only real game I have ever played. I think my husband will agree with me that I am addicted to this game.

I started playing to see what was keeping him up all night. I don't think he ever expected me to get very far in the game. I literally fell in love with just about everything in the game. I can't stop playing or creating new characters. I'll tell you honestly what keeps me playing, it's the people I have met in game. Not literally met but these people I talk to every day, some come from as far away as Sweden and Japan and some well almost next door. So many different personalities all gathered together to share hours of gaming fun and sometimes frustration. If I get a chance later I will post a picture of my toon.. She is the other me.

My husband and I choose to play this game over getting cable t.v. However just recently I had to make him a promise to cut back playing. This game was consuming all my time when I wasn't working. I'm sure he wouldn't mind if I quit the game altogether.. but I just can't see myself doing that so for now.. Darling you'll just have to play WoW a littl while longer ;)

Summer Vacations

So here we are nearing summertime once again and the big decision must be made.. What to do this summer? Last year we took my step-daughter to Disney and swore it would be 5 or so years before we did it again. This Christmas my husband got the idea in his head of taking her again to Disney before she turns 10, once she turns 10 it's all aldult prices.

I started looking in Jan at prices and flights but my husband chose to wait.. This last week has been spent trying to figure out if we should still go or no. Flights got so ridiculously high in prices and to top it off the little one has decided she does like to fly, so we were trying to find direct flights. Lo and behold Air Canada came up with a deal *cough* *cough* and our vacation is now booked.

That being said, planning a vacation I realized is not relaxing, it is very stress filled especially for a Disney vacation. Plan your meals at what park, oops what park is open earlier or stays open late. The vacation itself is really not relaxing either when you think of it 8 days on the go constantly so that you get your moneys worth.

So I ask you is going away during your holiday really a good idea? Can you really say that you come back to work relaxed?

Favorite Shows..

Well to be honest I only watch two shows. My husband and I are not hooked on tv, we're usually on the computer all night playing WoW So I am sure there are many good shows out there but we watch The Office and Battlestar Gallactica. My favorite is really Battlestar Gallactica, sometimes I find The office too embarrassing to watch.

The ongoing question in BSG is who is the fifth cylon, the only one left to identify. I've been mulling it over time and time again.. and well I still think it's Kara Thrace. How could she survive what she has? I know that she's been told she will lead her people to destruction but who says her people are the humans? Could they not be the cylons? A friend sent me to this page we're Moore says that the last cylon is not at the table, can we trust him? Should we believe him? A friend thinks it's Gaeta but I think I am sticking to my guns and saying Kara Thrace..

Creative or no ?

You know I figured out this morning that this could get addictive..Maybe that's not such a bad thing, my husband says I am a lazy writer, I forget my punctuation all the time! Last night I think I had a dozen different topics going on in my mind, I should have written them down.

When I was younger I wanted to write a book, I had ideas but was way too lazy to do anything about it. Maybe this will lead me towards a different path. I am not what the definition of creative is, I do however seem to be able to look at a room and imagine the colours and layout. I can say to my husband that's going to fit there, he'll argue of course but in the end I am right, just don't ask me to draw for you what I am imagining my creativity ends with visualization. I never took art classes or really any music classes, I speak two languages fluently however one dominates, so much so that in grade 7 I failed english and had to take extra courses so art classes in school became non existent for me. Would they have helped me be more creative? Just because I can't draw, sing or play a musical instrument does this make me less creative than everyone else?

To Evi

So I figure my next post should be to Evi.. I "met" Evi through my husband. I say "met" because we have never seen each other.. She played World of Warcraft as does my husband ( she quit ), I started playing long after those two.

Evi's been my sounding board over the last year, without her I think I would have gone nuts. She's listened to me rant and rave about everything under the sun, we've shared some common rants. She's helped me many a times come to decisions that are the best for me. We talk every day, I think hardly a day goes by where one of us doesn't have something that's driving us nuts. In my heart I can say that even though we haven't met Evi is one of my best friends.

So Evi thank you with all my heart.

Today's my first day.

So a friend of mine kinda got me thinking about blogging. Not knowing were to start I figured I would just make this one a short intro. I set up this blog really for me, a place to come and put my thoughts somewhere, a place that I could come and look back and see how silly I was at any given time. As I get older I find my memory for details is not what it once was, so what better way to remember what I was thinking at any given point.

If you happen to read my daily musings ( I hope I will be able to do this daily ) feel free to say hi or to tell me you don't agree with something I have said..