Let me tell you a story..
August 2003 I walked into my new job, I was being introduced around and suddenly there he is, my heart started racing then as my eyes are looking him over what do I see ?? You got it a wedding ring, boy did my heart drop. Funny thing is he and I slowly became friends and found out we had many things in common. We started talking on MSN every night, he would tell me about his marriage, talk about his daughter. I found myself falling in love with him, however I was having a hell of an internal debate, I was not going to be the other woman. My husband marriage had already hit speed bumps before me, he had separated from his wife for two years and he had just gone back this past year, things hadn't really changed for them though. In my head I said do I buy this story? My heart was telling me he was sincere.
My husband calls me on the weekend and says to me I need to talk to you can I come over? Sure I reply, he comes over and needless to say my family is not happy they are worried I am setting myself up for a world of hurt. At this point I feel like telling them it's too late I am in love with him already. At this point I tell my husband that whatever decision he makes has to be for the sake of his daughter how he wants her to see a marriage is, no decision should be made based on what could be for us. Against all my rules we shared our first kiss that day before he left to think about our discussion.. My heart was pounding.
At this point I am sure you know what happened. You got it my husband decided he wanted his daughter to see an affectionate relationship. He was very careful not to bring me into her life right away. He was very smart that way. He also likes to point out that I asked him to marry me.
I now have a wonderful family... I have a husband who cherishes me and spoils me. My stepdaughter is as much mine as she is her moms. I wonder sometimes how I got so lucky?
Moral of my story sometimes you have to let your heart lead not your head ...
Darling I know you will read this.. To you I say thank you for wishing for me ..I love you with all my heart.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Baxter
It's a small pic but here is Baxter at 5 weeks old. Needless to say he is no longer that small he weigs in at a whopping 110lbs..
My dogs
I am an animal lover, I have two dogs that I absolutely adore. Sasha is my 8 year old black lab/border collie cross, she's calm and very ladylike so much so I call her my princess. Baxter is my 6 year old black lab/german shepherd/husky mix, he's my devil everything sasha is he's the opposite. She'll lay there waiting for you to pay attention to her, he will let you know precisely when he's had enough of being ignored or when he want's his cookies.
They've had to go through some changes over the past 5 years since I met my husband. They used to have my full attention now they don't get as much. They use to share my bed with me now they aren't allowed in the bedroom, we've even started keeping them out of my stepdaughters bedroom when she is not there.
Through all of this they remain faithful and loving to me. recently Sasha tore a ligament in her knee, I've been told that it will heal from some and from others it will never heal unless I have surgery done. Obviously the vets want me to do the surgery, however as much as I adore my dogs I can't justify spending 4 thousand on a surgery for her. Does that make me a bad owner? Somedays I think yes.
My husband and I are both allergic to them, I chose to have them before my wonderful husband came into the picture so for me he puts up with the sniffles, the dog hair, the drool. Sometimes I try to imagine what it would be like without them, I know life would be easier but I know my heart would miss them. What I do know is after they are gone, I won't be replacing them. They are at the moment my babies.
They've had to go through some changes over the past 5 years since I met my husband. They used to have my full attention now they don't get as much. They use to share my bed with me now they aren't allowed in the bedroom, we've even started keeping them out of my stepdaughters bedroom when she is not there.
Through all of this they remain faithful and loving to me. recently Sasha tore a ligament in her knee, I've been told that it will heal from some and from others it will never heal unless I have surgery done. Obviously the vets want me to do the surgery, however as much as I adore my dogs I can't justify spending 4 thousand on a surgery for her. Does that make me a bad owner? Somedays I think yes.
My husband and I are both allergic to them, I chose to have them before my wonderful husband came into the picture so for me he puts up with the sniffles, the dog hair, the drool. Sometimes I try to imagine what it would be like without them, I know life would be easier but I know my heart would miss them. What I do know is after they are gone, I won't be replacing them. They are at the moment my babies.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Wii Fit
So today I am reading about the new Wii fit.. last Christmas I got my husband the Wii.. Now not being a big gamer there arent' many games that interest me. I got the endless ocean game but shame on me I haven't played it much.
Now I know I have a few pounds to shed, and all my good intentions of going to a gym well lets say they really were good intentions. I also keep thinking about going out to run every morning but the weather here just doesn't make it easy to motivate oneself. So next best step? Exercise in my own home. Now the trick is to convince my husband to buy it for me easy right? Wrong. Because I am always full of good intentions he doesn't believe me when I say I am going to do this minimum 3 morning a week. So he's asking me now what happens when you don't do it three mornings a week.. What kind of answer am I supposed to give to that? I don't know myself. Ido know I need and want to get fit againand that I want to do in in the privacy of my own home. So where do we go ffrom here? I myself have no answer to that question.
Now I know I have a few pounds to shed, and all my good intentions of going to a gym well lets say they really were good intentions. I also keep thinking about going out to run every morning but the weather here just doesn't make it easy to motivate oneself. So next best step? Exercise in my own home. Now the trick is to convince my husband to buy it for me easy right? Wrong. Because I am always full of good intentions he doesn't believe me when I say I am going to do this minimum 3 morning a week. So he's asking me now what happens when you don't do it three mornings a week.. What kind of answer am I supposed to give to that? I don't know myself. Ido know I need and want to get fit againand that I want to do in in the privacy of my own home. So where do we go ffrom here? I myself have no answer to that question.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Horoscope
This sorta ties in with my previous post ..
For the fun of it I checked out my horoscope on MSN and here is what it said
Today's Cancer Horoscope: May 27, 2008
Once your brain gets hooked on something, dear Cancer, you are likely to take it to the extreme.
hmm could it be for once they know what they are talking about??
For the fun of it I checked out my horoscope on MSN and here is what it said
Today's Cancer Horoscope: May 27, 2008
Once your brain gets hooked on something, dear Cancer, you are likely to take it to the extreme.
hmm could it be for once they know what they are talking about??
Dirty Secret
OK here's my dirty secret I can 100% say that I am addicted to WoW. What is WoW you ask? It's an acronym for World of Warcraft. What is World of Warcraft you ask, well it's the best game ever! Actually to be honest the only real game I have ever played. I think my husband will agree with me that I am addicted to this game.
I started playing to see what was keeping him up all night. I don't think he ever expected me to get very far in the game. I literally fell in love with just about everything in the game. I can't stop playing or creating new characters. I'll tell you honestly what keeps me playing, it's the people I have met in game. Not literally met but these people I talk to every day, some come from as far away as Sweden and Japan and some well almost next door. So many different personalities all gathered together to share hours of gaming fun and sometimes frustration. If I get a chance later I will post a picture of my toon.. She is the other me.
My husband and I choose to play this game over getting cable t.v. However just recently I had to make him a promise to cut back playing. This game was consuming all my time when I wasn't working. I'm sure he wouldn't mind if I quit the game altogether.. but I just can't see myself doing that so for now.. Darling you'll just have to play WoW a littl while longer ;)
I started playing to see what was keeping him up all night. I don't think he ever expected me to get very far in the game. I literally fell in love with just about everything in the game. I can't stop playing or creating new characters. I'll tell you honestly what keeps me playing, it's the people I have met in game. Not literally met but these people I talk to every day, some come from as far away as Sweden and Japan and some well almost next door. So many different personalities all gathered together to share hours of gaming fun and sometimes frustration. If I get a chance later I will post a picture of my toon.. She is the other me.
My husband and I choose to play this game over getting cable t.v. However just recently I had to make him a promise to cut back playing. This game was consuming all my time when I wasn't working. I'm sure he wouldn't mind if I quit the game altogether.. but I just can't see myself doing that so for now.. Darling you'll just have to play WoW a littl while longer ;)
Monday, May 26, 2008
Summer Vacations
So here we are nearing summertime once again and the big decision must be made.. What to do this summer? Last year we took my step-daughter to Disney and swore it would be 5 or so years before we did it again. This Christmas my husband got the idea in his head of taking her again to Disney before she turns 10, once she turns 10 it's all aldult prices.
I started looking in Jan at prices and flights but my husband chose to wait.. This last week has been spent trying to figure out if we should still go or no. Flights got so ridiculously high in prices and to top it off the little one has decided she does like to fly, so we were trying to find direct flights. Lo and behold Air Canada came up with a deal *cough* *cough* and our vacation is now booked.
That being said, planning a vacation I realized is not relaxing, it is very stress filled especially for a Disney vacation. Plan your meals at what park, oops what park is open earlier or stays open late. The vacation itself is really not relaxing either when you think of it 8 days on the go constantly so that you get your moneys worth.
So I ask you is going away during your holiday really a good idea? Can you really say that you come back to work relaxed?
I started looking in Jan at prices and flights but my husband chose to wait.. This last week has been spent trying to figure out if we should still go or no. Flights got so ridiculously high in prices and to top it off the little one has decided she does like to fly, so we were trying to find direct flights. Lo and behold Air Canada came up with a deal *cough* *cough* and our vacation is now booked.
That being said, planning a vacation I realized is not relaxing, it is very stress filled especially for a Disney vacation. Plan your meals at what park, oops what park is open earlier or stays open late. The vacation itself is really not relaxing either when you think of it 8 days on the go constantly so that you get your moneys worth.
So I ask you is going away during your holiday really a good idea? Can you really say that you come back to work relaxed?
Friday, May 23, 2008
Favorite Shows..
Well to be honest I only watch two shows. My husband and I are not hooked on tv, we're usually on the computer all night playing WoW So I am sure there are many good shows out there but we watch The Office and Battlestar Gallactica. My favorite is really Battlestar Gallactica, sometimes I find The office too embarrassing to watch.
The ongoing question in BSG is who is the fifth cylon, the only one left to identify. I've been mulling it over time and time again.. and well I still think it's Kara Thrace. How could she survive what she has? I know that she's been told she will lead her people to destruction but who says her people are the humans? Could they not be the cylons? A friend sent me to this page we're Moore says that the last cylon is not at the table, can we trust him? Should we believe him? A friend thinks it's Gaeta but I think I am sticking to my guns and saying Kara Thrace..
The ongoing question in BSG is who is the fifth cylon, the only one left to identify. I've been mulling it over time and time again.. and well I still think it's Kara Thrace. How could she survive what she has? I know that she's been told she will lead her people to destruction but who says her people are the humans? Could they not be the cylons? A friend sent me to this page we're Moore says that the last cylon is not at the table, can we trust him? Should we believe him? A friend thinks it's Gaeta but I think I am sticking to my guns and saying Kara Thrace..
Creative or no ?
You know I figured out this morning that this could get addictive..Maybe that's not such a bad thing, my husband says I am a lazy writer, I forget my punctuation all the time! Last night I think I had a dozen different topics going on in my mind, I should have written them down.
When I was younger I wanted to write a book, I had ideas but was way too lazy to do anything about it. Maybe this will lead me towards a different path. I am not what the definition of creative is, I do however seem to be able to look at a room and imagine the colours and layout. I can say to my husband that's going to fit there, he'll argue of course but in the end I am right, just don't ask me to draw for you what I am imagining my creativity ends with visualization. I never took art classes or really any music classes, I speak two languages fluently however one dominates, so much so that in grade 7 I failed english and had to take extra courses so art classes in school became non existent for me. Would they have helped me be more creative? Just because I can't draw, sing or play a musical instrument does this make me less creative than everyone else?
When I was younger I wanted to write a book, I had ideas but was way too lazy to do anything about it. Maybe this will lead me towards a different path. I am not what the definition of creative is, I do however seem to be able to look at a room and imagine the colours and layout. I can say to my husband that's going to fit there, he'll argue of course but in the end I am right, just don't ask me to draw for you what I am imagining my creativity ends with visualization. I never took art classes or really any music classes, I speak two languages fluently however one dominates, so much so that in grade 7 I failed english and had to take extra courses so art classes in school became non existent for me. Would they have helped me be more creative? Just because I can't draw, sing or play a musical instrument does this make me less creative than everyone else?
Thursday, May 22, 2008
To Evi
So I figure my next post should be to Evi.. I "met" Evi through my husband. I say "met" because we have never seen each other.. She played World of Warcraft as does my husband ( she quit ), I started playing long after those two.
Evi's been my sounding board over the last year, without her I think I would have gone nuts. She's listened to me rant and rave about everything under the sun, we've shared some common rants. She's helped me many a times come to decisions that are the best for me. We talk every day, I think hardly a day goes by where one of us doesn't have something that's driving us nuts. In my heart I can say that even though we haven't met Evi is one of my best friends.
So Evi thank you with all my heart.
Evi's been my sounding board over the last year, without her I think I would have gone nuts. She's listened to me rant and rave about everything under the sun, we've shared some common rants. She's helped me many a times come to decisions that are the best for me. We talk every day, I think hardly a day goes by where one of us doesn't have something that's driving us nuts. In my heart I can say that even though we haven't met Evi is one of my best friends.
So Evi thank you with all my heart.
Today's my first day.
So a friend of mine kinda got me thinking about blogging. Not knowing were to start I figured I would just make this one a short intro. I set up this blog really for me, a place to come and put my thoughts somewhere, a place that I could come and look back and see how silly I was at any given time. As I get older I find my memory for details is not what it once was, so what better way to remember what I was thinking at any given point.
If you happen to read my daily musings ( I hope I will be able to do this daily ) feel free to say hi or to tell me you don't agree with something I have said..
If you happen to read my daily musings ( I hope I will be able to do this daily ) feel free to say hi or to tell me you don't agree with something I have said..
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