Yesterday I had another appointment at the fertility clinic.. This one was to see if the follicles had reached the size necessary for the insemination.
The appointments are usually quick but there is the one doctor that drives me nuts, she's always wandering around the hospital and making people wait. So after waiting for 30 min for her she tells me that I have 1 follicle measuring 16mm, they want follicles to be 18mm before inducing ovulation and then inseminating. My other ones were only 14mm and 12mm. So she suggests I come back on Friday for another ultrasound for records sake cause no matter what we are doing the procedure on Saturday. So as angry as I was told her no thank you wasn't coming and missing more work. So I walk out of there angry boy was I looking for a fight and crying to boot.
Why so frustrated?? Well this is our 4th attempt and probably final of the IUI treatments then they will want to do IVF. Our first time I only had 1 follicle no success, the second I had WAY too many they didn't want to proceed, third time I had five still no success. All I was thinking about was if 5 didn't work how the hell is one going to succeed..
Today I am in a better place not as frustrated and despairing.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
More Trying
My husband just informed me that I needed to go blog. Somehow I think it's because I forget to tell him things sometimes and he finds them out here, that or he gets to poke fun at me for my stupidness.
I was going to write yesterday but was highly stressed from another visit to hospital for our fertility treatments. We decided this month to give the IUI treatment another go, this will be the 4th attempt and I think our doctor will want us to do IVF next (not looking forward to it at all). So they changes my medications this cycle, yesterday we had an ultrasound to see how the medication was working, did I have enough follicles where they big enough blah blah blah. Nasty surprise the ultrasound technician asks me if I have ever been told that I have polyps?? She claims she saw two spots one in the uterus and the other on an ovary. Now day 3 of my cycle before starting any meds I always go for an ultrasound and everything was clear.. They do that ultrasound to make sure going in you have to problems and this way they can keep track of potential problems with your medication.. So the question now is did the medication cause these growths ( if they really are growths ) or did the technician make an error. Personally I am hoping that the tech made an error.
I have enough stress every time I do this that I don't need the thought of polyps or cysts hanging over my head. Why does something so natural as having a baby have to be so damn hard and stressful..
I was going to write yesterday but was highly stressed from another visit to hospital for our fertility treatments. We decided this month to give the IUI treatment another go, this will be the 4th attempt and I think our doctor will want us to do IVF next (not looking forward to it at all). So they changes my medications this cycle, yesterday we had an ultrasound to see how the medication was working, did I have enough follicles where they big enough blah blah blah. Nasty surprise the ultrasound technician asks me if I have ever been told that I have polyps?? She claims she saw two spots one in the uterus and the other on an ovary. Now day 3 of my cycle before starting any meds I always go for an ultrasound and everything was clear.. They do that ultrasound to make sure going in you have to problems and this way they can keep track of potential problems with your medication.. So the question now is did the medication cause these growths ( if they really are growths ) or did the technician make an error. Personally I am hoping that the tech made an error.
I have enough stress every time I do this that I don't need the thought of polyps or cysts hanging over my head. Why does something so natural as having a baby have to be so damn hard and stressful..
Monday, June 9, 2008
The Sun and I
So being a redhead you would think I would know better right?? I think not! This weekend we had great weather here.. So I decided time to take advantage and start getting some sun so that I don't burn when I go to Disney in August. Well I took sun alright only problemis that I forgot to put sunscreen on. Now I'm a redhead with freckles so you can imagine very easily I am sure how easy it is for me to burn..
I decided to go out and do the lawn yesterday, I was so focused on doing it before it got to hot that I forgot to put sunscreen on, then came assembling the swing and watching my step daughter on her water slide. At 4 pm yesterday I realize ooh my skin is feeling tight.. Yup you got it my shoulders and back are RED. My husband and mother asked me if I was ever going to learn.. I guess at my age the answer would have to be a resounding NO! My defense? I only burn once a year, right at the begining of the summer, so there.
I decided to go out and do the lawn yesterday, I was so focused on doing it before it got to hot that I forgot to put sunscreen on, then came assembling the swing and watching my step daughter on her water slide. At 4 pm yesterday I realize ooh my skin is feeling tight.. Yup you got it my shoulders and back are RED. My husband and mother asked me if I was ever going to learn.. I guess at my age the answer would have to be a resounding NO! My defense? I only burn once a year, right at the begining of the summer, so there.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Couldn't resist
In my previous post I brought up Madonna and her Like a Virgin song.. Well I couldn't resist putting in that video as well. God what was I thinking all those years ago..
Music
So last night while playing WoW I decided to go back in time, I go to youtube and find a video of Tiffany. All of a sudden it sparks a whole conversation in guildchat and what kind of music we all listened to when in high school and did we dress like anyone is particular. well I have to admit I idolized Madonna, yes I teased my hair and did everything to look like her when her Like a Virgin video came out.. I found out I was not the only one thank god.. reminder to me need to burn those pictures of me from high school before I can get blackmailed.. As much as I loved and idolized Madonna there was an artist that I spent hours listening to while I was in the hospital in my senior year..Tiffany you got it. I wanted to be her, this sexy redhead :) .
So last night as I mentioned earlier I check out this video and now it's bloody well stuck in my head, so much so that my husband calls me at work and I pick up the phone signing one of her songs.. Now I don't want to be the only with that song stuck in my head so I am going to post it for you to listen to..
What music can you remember listening to in high school?
So last night as I mentioned earlier I check out this video and now it's bloody well stuck in my head, so much so that my husband calls me at work and I pick up the phone signing one of her songs.. Now I don't want to be the only with that song stuck in my head so I am going to post it for you to listen to..
What music can you remember listening to in high school?
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Trying to have a baby
I know I have been seriously slacking this week...
My husband and I will be married 3 years on the 18th of this month, so for almost that length of time we have been trying to get pregnant. After 9 months of trying my family doctor sent me to a fertility specialist, we found out that we fall into the 10-15% that infertility is unexplained. Since April of 07 we've been doing treatments on and off, because of my age my doctor went right into the IUI treatment instead of just trying medications first. We have done 3 treatments one of which was cancelled because I had too many follicles. So today we went back to try for a 4th time.
Now in between treatments we managed to get pregnant, however I miscarried. So I start thinking the one time I get pregnant is right after taking antibiotics for whooping cough, my thought is, is infertility connected to the immune system? I have two dogs that I am allergic to, is having them causing me to not conceive? So I try to research this and find only one article on infertility and Asthma and they say no correlation.. There really can't be only one article out there can there?
My husband and I will be married 3 years on the 18th of this month, so for almost that length of time we have been trying to get pregnant. After 9 months of trying my family doctor sent me to a fertility specialist, we found out that we fall into the 10-15% that infertility is unexplained. Since April of 07 we've been doing treatments on and off, because of my age my doctor went right into the IUI treatment instead of just trying medications first. We have done 3 treatments one of which was cancelled because I had too many follicles. So today we went back to try for a 4th time.
Now in between treatments we managed to get pregnant, however I miscarried. So I start thinking the one time I get pregnant is right after taking antibiotics for whooping cough, my thought is, is infertility connected to the immune system? I have two dogs that I am allergic to, is having them causing me to not conceive? So I try to research this and find only one article on infertility and Asthma and they say no correlation.. There really can't be only one article out there can there?
Monday, June 2, 2008
Family Decisions
So my husband says to me today.. "Two days in a row no blog", I was like yup. So I decided to hop on, my biggest problem was omg what do I want to talk about.
My parents are at an age that as they like to say "they are falling apart". My mom has survived so much I think she must have 9 lives. She's had cancer, blod clots, severe bleeding ulcers, angioplasty and a pace maker put in, that's not to mention she has developed diabetes and high blood pressure. Every year is a battery of tests, last year she decided she wanted to have knee replacement surgery. Actually scratch that is was in 2006 that we went to see the surgeon. Finally a few weeks ago she was referred to a new one because of long wait times (no kidding). Well she saw the surgeon today. He claims she is VERY high risk not just cause of her heart but her diabetes could cause infections and she may need to have the surgery done multiple times.
Now mom is 65 years old this year, she is always in pain due to her knee and now we have to discuss as a family wether it is worth the risk. It boils down to possibly no more pain to possibly a series of operations which could lead to amputation with a diabetic. There's also the fact her heart may not be able to take the surgery.
How does one tell their mom that they'd rather see them in pain then go through all these if's. So tonight is a family discussion.. God what do I say??
My parents are at an age that as they like to say "they are falling apart". My mom has survived so much I think she must have 9 lives. She's had cancer, blod clots, severe bleeding ulcers, angioplasty and a pace maker put in, that's not to mention she has developed diabetes and high blood pressure. Every year is a battery of tests, last year she decided she wanted to have knee replacement surgery. Actually scratch that is was in 2006 that we went to see the surgeon. Finally a few weeks ago she was referred to a new one because of long wait times (no kidding). Well she saw the surgeon today. He claims she is VERY high risk not just cause of her heart but her diabetes could cause infections and she may need to have the surgery done multiple times.
Now mom is 65 years old this year, she is always in pain due to her knee and now we have to discuss as a family wether it is worth the risk. It boils down to possibly no more pain to possibly a series of operations which could lead to amputation with a diabetic. There's also the fact her heart may not be able to take the surgery.
How does one tell their mom that they'd rather see them in pain then go through all these if's. So tonight is a family discussion.. God what do I say??
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